Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Minding My Own Business

I’ve thought for quite some time about starting my own business. I’d love to be my own boss, set my own hours, and even keep up with all my own appointments and paperwork. I could be doing something I love to do and get paid for it. The problem is this: I am a chicken.

I am chicken to get the training I need because I fear it will be too hard or I won’t actually like doing what I think I like doing. I am chicken because I keep thinking, “I wouldn’t pay someone to do that” when I know that people would and do pay others to do just that. I am chicken to make money based upon my own skill to market myself and my abilities. I am afraid that when I’m done and people pay the bill, they’ll think, “That was SO not worth it. Never calling her again.” I am chicken to delve into the tax laws you must be familiar with when you have your own business because they are complicated and constantly changing. I’m afraid that Uncle Sam will be knocking on my door saying that I owe infinitely more money than I thought. I am, ultimately, afraid to fail.

On the other hand, I am also afraid of success. I am afraid that I will have too many clients and it will be too much for me to handle. I am afraid that at some point it will not be enjoyable for me anymore. I am afraid that it will become something that takes up too much of my time in order to be successful. I am afraid that people won’t pay their bills and I’ll be stuck, having spent time and money on something I would not be compensated for.

One of the problems is that what I want to do isn’t a “canned” business. You don’t buy a packet or start-up kit from someone and follow their instructions. I can’t sell products – I am not a salesman. Or a saleswoman, for that matter. I have no desire to do shows in people’s homes and gush about how great my products are and why you should buy them. That is not for me. I don’t even really like going to those shows and certainly don’t want to depend on them for income.

Husband is very encouraging. He would love for me to start my own business, and believes I could be successful with it. He has more confidence in me than I have in myself. He is constantly encouraging me to find out more about it and jump in. I kind of think that once I get my feet wet, I’d be ok. It’s that first step – it’s a doosie.

So will I ever take that first step? I don’t know. I may have to be shoved. Pin It


  1. What kind of business do you wanna do? Cause if it has anything to do with organizing people's homes, I'll be glad to sign up as your first customer!!!!! :)

  2. It is so hard for a calculating person to take risks. Because risks represent the unknown...and us calculating types like to make assessments based on what we KNOW. We are sensory. Give me something I can see and feel and manipulate and I can make it happen. sure is hard to get your hands on it!
    I am always amazed when I consider the story of Abraham when God said, "Go." And Abraham went, but he just didn't know where the heck he was headed. He just KNEW he was supposed to go.
    I suppose when you get to the place when you KNOW you are supposed to will have the faith that Abraham did.
    FLASH---for myself and for you. God gives us the grace as we need it. It doesn't come in advance. Abraham got his grace and his faith was increased each day as he moved in the direction God has pointed him.
    Keep your nose pointed in the direction God has you turned...and claim all that GRACE! and increase your faith!

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  4. Curly9:10 AM

    As a young sister you was continuously tortured and beaten I spent many long childhood years plotting how I would take advantage of the perfect opportunity to give you a good shove...
    This isn't quite what I had in mind, but it'll do!

  5. TRUMP8:49 AM

    Well I was going to offer to shove you but seeing as how a couple of other people have beaten me to the punch I guess I'll just have to keep up on my blog reading so I can be the first to shove you.